4 June, cycle 3B – third day of chemo

The night was once again broken but Stacey, my night nurse, tried really hard to group together all the nightly meds, blood draws and chemo infusions as much as she could. God bless her. I think I ended up getting nearly four hours of uninterrupted sleep and about seven hours total, not bad all things considered. At least today I won’t be waiting around wondering (and worrying) about the biopsy. I’ll get my shower, change the sheets on my bed, and make more jewelry. I know, it doesn’t sound terribly exciting, but it’s a helluva lot better than just lying in bed counting the ceiling tiles or watching the second hand on the clock do its slow, stuttering sweep. I did that during my first cycle which probably explains some of my eventual delirium. Geez, I NEVER want to go through that again!

The day passed in a sort of hazy blur. I was able to get a bit more work done on one pair of earrings but I’m going to need to step up my game if I hope to finish it all by the time I leave the hospital.

I really hope I can get to bed a lot earlier tonight. Dr. Santiago has already been by and now all I’m really waiting for are my nightly meds. It’s still only 7:15pm but I already feel quite bleary and I know I won’t be able to stay awake for much longer. I don’t dare start a movie or series episode – I’ll be out cold within a matter of minutes. The rounds doc asked me earlier today if I would like any sleeping meds but I flat-out refused. I sure as hell don’t need more chemicals in my system and I already know the reason why I’ve been having trouble sleeping anyway. It’s called the HOSPITAL, and being awakened several times a night for blood labs and vitals, as well as eye drops. Pffhhffhfhht…